I won’t lie, this feels so weird sitting here and writing this post after 6 months of zero contact with my blog but it feels bloody amazing to be back to a place where I feel I have things to say and share thing with those who choose to pull up a pew and join me on my rambles.
The blogging community was always a place I felt like I belonged. I didn’t feel like a total weirdo and I didn’t feel so alone in the world. Seems silly of me to say but being 22 with absolutely no friends outside of blogging really has had a huge emotional impact on my mental health. Without blogging, socialising wasn’t really something I was able to do because lets be honest when you have no friends to go out with how does a socially awkward, anxious 22 year old make new friends? It’s not as easy as it seems!
I’d had some frustrations with blogging in the run up to my absence but they were all frustrations I could have avoided if I’d have taken a step back, taken a deep breath and admitted to myself I was trying to do far too much. Nothing prepared me for the morning I woke up and just had zero interest in producing and photographing content. My interest in beauty was declining so my love for writing about it as avidly as I was…just wasn’t me anymore. It left me wondering who I was and what I had to talk about if I didn’t have that any more.
My frustrations began with Instagram. Pouring (unnecessary) hours into producing photos for Instagram with the ever decreasing engagement on that platform so I completely gave up with it. My other frustrations arose with spending hours and hours photographing blog photos and being an absolute perfectionist in getting the styling of a photo ‘blogger worthy’ that I’d become infuriated with myself when it wasn’t just what I wanted. Later down the line in my time away from blogging I realised that nothing was ever going to be ‘just what I wanted’ because I’d lost touch with myself and I’d lost touch with who I was as a content writer. I was going down like a sinking ship on a never ending spiral of frustration, comparison and lack of motivation. So I quit. I quit because I thought I didn’t fit in anymore and I thought I didn’t have a voice but I was wrong, oh boy was I wrong in thinking that. I was just going at it in all the wrong directions and making it far harder than it ever needed to be.
I took my time away as an opportunity to seek out who I was and find a direction in my life but without my blog and without the blogging community, I was lonely. What did I learn whilst I had an unintentional break from blogging? I learnt that my fear of not being good enough, not being ‘perfect’ and loneliness was the one thing that pushed me away from the thing that made me feel awesome and surrounded by good people and so I’ve found a new direction and I am so happy to be back!
Some changes to be made…
Things are going to be different around here. I’m going to write what I want, throw myself into new topics and areas of writing and care a whole lot less about the ins and outs. I’m going to go back to why I started my blog. To have fun. So be prepared for a whole lot of northern-ness, chatty posts, lifestyle, photography, reviews and whatever the heck else I fancy publishing on this little space that I proudly call my own!
Photography is a huge portion of the direction I want my blog to go and in my time away it’s what I have been focussing on, my true passion. I want to meet bloggers, make friends take awesome photos of you guys and have fun days out and make memories along the way! If it sounds like fun to you then please do reach out to me on Twitter (@tt_mirror) if you are in the northern portion of little old England because I’d love to arrange as much as I can, as often as I can with you all! Free photos to grow my portfolio, meet new people and give you guys photos for your content too!
I wanted to share my proudest photo I have ever taken after arranging with a friend (who I have had permission off to share this photo) a shoot I never saw myself doing let alone coming away with photos I was so beyond proud of. I really pushed my creativity and my comfort zone and really went for it and the hard work paid off. The above photo was my favourite from the shoot!
I have a brand spanking new design and I’m ready to throw myself into social situations, make new friends and blog about it all along the way. Through The Mirror is back and I’m sure as hell not going away any time soon! I’ve missed you all and if you’re still around reading this post then leave a comment down below with a blogging tip for me and why you started your blog, lets throw a little nostalgia up in the air shall we?!